Discussions on TIME- 7 (Comments)

SA dearest Brother Ali,

i don't want to leave you waiting or wondering why i've been silent lately. please know i'm thinking very deeply about your last email (the attached reflections on my reflections), plus this email too. this discussion of TIME and all of what you say is enormously important to me. i'm purposely waiting longer before i give further comments for several reasons. since we began discussing TIME, i've noticed my own process unfolding as i open more, not in big ways, just very small, but in ways that i feel are nonetheless significant. i've come to have a much greater and deeper appreciation for our subject of TIME.

not only that, but several days ago when i first read in your attached reflections that you've been thinking about TIME for decades, that gave me an instant and profound experience (yes, an actual experience as opposed to just thoughts in my head) of empathy about what that statement really meant....as if i somehow instantly experienced a temporary glimpse of something far greater, maybe like a totality, as yet unidentifiable for me, but which was maybe similar to your purpose for discussing TIME as well as why you've spent decades thinking about it. i hope this last sentence isn't too confusing, inshallah!!!

all that you've said since we first began discussing TIME is really so very very important. i have great respect and honor for the tremendous, careful attention you've given over decades regarding TIME. i also have an understanding of at least most of my limits and abilities. it is exactly for all the reasons stated above that i feel if i don't sit with your last two emails longer, give them careful thought and attention, watch my process with them awhile longer...i'll be doing a huge disservice to our entire discussion on TIME, the things you've said in your attached reflections, plus this new email of today. what you've written deserves the utmost care and attention on my part..precisely for the sake of why we're discussing it as you state below!

"We are not really talking about TIME per se. We are trying to understand what we are observing right now"

i just have a very strong "gut" feeling/intuition that i'm defeating myself somehow if i don't take more time with your writings. any sooner comments/reflections out of me feel rudimentary, crude, and horribly disrespectful to what we're trying to understand. i hope you don't mind if i take several days longer. our discussion on TIME...it's unfolding for me more, little by little, though not necessarily clearly when i want. i'm witnessing myself through all of this, not certain if i'm on the right track or if so for how long, but hopefully i'm seeing more truth, inshallah!!!

i sense so many things in what you say, i just struggle sorting it all out for myself always wanting a more clear understanding in this ever convoluted concept of TIME with respect to trying to understand about what we're observing right now so that we may be in the presence of our Creator. perhaps in a few days, i'll have a more solidified meaningful reply for you, inshallah.
julie